Wednesday, 18 July 2012

Wednesday Weigh-in

Starting weight: 22st 7.5lbs (315.5 pounds)

This week: 22st 7lbs (315 pounds)
= - 1/2lb

Total loss: 1/2lbs
Oh my word, sweetie~pies, the last time I wrote a weigh-in post was waaaay back in May!  I guess I should be grateful that I haven't gained lots of pounds since then, eh ;-)
My head just hasn't been in the right place for dieting/healthy eating/call-it-what-you-will but for once I have been cutting myself a bit of slack and just going with the flow.  I think that is reflected in the status quo being maintained ~ yes??  Still, that little voice in the back of my mind has been reminding me that it really isn't the best thing to simply stay at this weight for the rest of my life.  I rather think that I am finally ready to listen to said voice and make steps to alter my lifestyle.
For that is what reducing my excess weight is going to have to entail, my loves.  I am going to have to make a commitment to changing the way I eat, and also how I think about food.  For more years than I care to remember I have used food less as a simple source of fuel and more as a means of comfort when times have been difficult.  As we all know, though, using food to "stuff down" emotions is not a long-term solution; there comes a point where we have to steal ourselves to face whatever those problems are ~ otherwise we simply stagnate and never move on in our lives.
I have had enough of stagnating, my loves.  I want to live my life rather than simply coast through it ~ and that means "dealing" with all those issues that I have allowed to hold me back.  And the bottom line truly is that it really is only myself who is doing the holding-back.  And it is equally true that the only person who let go of the past is me  ~ no one else can do it for me!
As I have already mentioned, I have been going through a somewhat emotional journey with the decluttering exercise currently taking place in my home.  I won't pretend that suddenly it has become simple to let go of things, but it has gradually been dawning on me that the task is slowly becoming more manageable ~ and a little less emotional.
And at the same time, I have become aware that I actually do want to change the way I live ~ not in some sort of abstract I'll-do-it-someday way, but in a firm realisation that this is not how I want to spend the rest of my life.  And since I am already 51 years old, I'd better get on with it NOW!
So this week's supermarket shopping has been done with this lifestyle change placed firmly uppermost in my mind, following the principles set out in The Harcombe Diet.  Said shopping is due for delivery today, my loves ~ my new life starts tomorrow :-)


Kandi said...

Good for you!! The hardest step is always the first one and you have done that already by planning and preparing to start out on your new healthy lifestyle. I totally understand every word you have written in this post and I want to wish you a world of luck. I'm going through a similar thing and decided to change my life and lose some weight and so far my head is still in that mode. One small change I made that has helped loads is walking, not running or even jogging, just get up and walk somewhere, every day, even if you are tired or it's raining. It has made a real difference to me I hope it helps you too xx

JENNIFER said...

Congratulations on your new journey! it sounds like you are on the road to a new life :o) I'm so happy for you. I'm still struggling with my weight issues, it's really hard but I WILL get there. Hugs Jennifer